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I am Rainbow Dash~
4 min read
NEWS:
Life has been sort of bad, as of late... I haven't seen the man I love in nearing a month... I feel lonely... and isolated... and frustrated...
And the self-inflicted heat brand on the back of my hand got infected. Badly. OTL So, lots of drugs. Lots.
And.......... got into a fight at school. That I started. And lost. OTLLL But, it was against an older boy, and I did put up a fight. Blind rage does nothing for my fighting skills...
GO TO THERAPY ALL the time!!!!!!!!!
I realised, as I was watching Kuroshitsuji, that I burned a star into the back of my left hand. I have an infected, pus-filled, Faustian contract. OTL
And... I really, really miss Caitlin... a lot... -Sighs-
Twilight Sparkle:
[x] You have a huge collection of books.
[x] You value your alone time.
[ ] You have trouble making friends.
[x] You are very intelligent.
[ ] You write letters regularly.
[ ] You find a lesson in everything.
[x] You have trouble doing things "the old-fashioned way."
[ ] You've recently moved to a new town.
[x] You're rather sarcastic.
[x] You're often accused of being a know-it-all.
Total: 6
Pinkie Pie:
[x] You're the black sheep of the family.
[ ] You're majorly hyper.
[x] You love to siiiing!
[ ] You're known for throwing great parties!
[ ] You're great at baking.
[x] Ponies sometimes don't get your jokes.
[ ] You're a prankster.
[x] You're a super-intense personality.
[ ] You have strange pets.
[x] You are known to go to extremes.
Total: 5
Applejack:
[x] You're very stubborn.
[ ] You find great joy in working.
[ ] You prefer the country to the city.
[/] You speak with an accent. (Eh... well... Isaac and David...)
[ ] You HATE cheating.
[x] You have freckles. (One on my nose that looks like a nose ring OTL)
[ ] You prefer casual wear rather than flashy things.
[ ] You wear your hair in a ponytail.
[ ] You have a large family.
[ ] You have trouble lying.
Total: 2.5
Rainbow Dash:
[x] You love winning.
[ ] You like sports.
[x] You have a funky hair colour.
[x] You have fangirl tendencies.
[x] You have no problem speaking your mind.
[/] You will give up anything for your friends. (There's one thing I never would... but, mostly anything.)
[x] You like being recognized for good things.
[x] You have no problem being 'one of the guys'.
[x] You act now, think later.
[x] You're very brave. (Eh... more stupid and reckless. But I'll go with brave :I )
Total: 8.5
Rarity:
[x] You love being the center of attention.
[x] You have a cat.
[ ] You sew well. (LOL NOPE.)
[x] It's well-known that you're somewhat vain.
[x] You love the excitement of the city!
[ ] You will overwork yourself to do something nice for your friends.
[x] You wear makeup.
[x] You're prone to whining.
[ ] You have expensive tastes.
[ ] You enjoy 'filly-time.'
Total: 6
Fluttershy:
[ ] You HATE being the centre of attention.
[ ] You struggle with sharing your mind.
[x] You love animals and help them however you can.
[x] You're graceful. (Like a fucking balleri------ *falls*)
[ ] You're very quiet or soft-spoken.
[x] You have a secret mean-streak.
[x] You've been told you could model. (*Laughs* I'm way too short. But I have been told to model.)
[ ] You're the eldest of your friends.
[ ] You like wearing your hair loose and long.
[ ] You're very nurturing. (I can be... to people I really care about...)
Total: 4
Life has been sort of bad, as of late... I haven't seen the man I love in nearing a month... I feel lonely... and isolated... and frustrated...
And the self-inflicted heat brand on the back of my hand got infected. Badly. OTL So, lots of drugs. Lots.
And.......... got into a fight at school. That I started. And lost. OTLLL But, it was against an older boy, and I did put up a fight. Blind rage does nothing for my fighting skills...
GO TO THERAPY ALL the time!!!!!!!!!
I realised, as I was watching Kuroshitsuji, that I burned a star into the back of my left hand. I have an infected, pus-filled, Faustian contract. OTL
And... I really, really miss Caitlin... a lot... -Sighs-
Twilight Sparkle:
[x] You have a huge collection of books.
[x] You value your alone time.
[ ] You have trouble making friends.
[x] You are very intelligent.
[ ] You write letters regularly.
[ ] You find a lesson in everything.
[x] You have trouble doing things "the old-fashioned way."
[ ] You've recently moved to a new town.
[x] You're rather sarcastic.
[x] You're often accused of being a know-it-all.
Total: 6
Pinkie Pie:
[x] You're the black sheep of the family.
[ ] You're majorly hyper.
[x] You love to siiiing!
[ ] You're known for throwing great parties!
[ ] You're great at baking.
[x] Ponies sometimes don't get your jokes.
[ ] You're a prankster.
[x] You're a super-intense personality.
[ ] You have strange pets.
[x] You are known to go to extremes.
Total: 5
Applejack:
[x] You're very stubborn.
[ ] You find great joy in working.
[ ] You prefer the country to the city.
[/] You speak with an accent. (Eh... well... Isaac and David...)
[ ] You HATE cheating.
[x] You have freckles. (One on my nose that looks like a nose ring OTL)
[ ] You prefer casual wear rather than flashy things.
[ ] You wear your hair in a ponytail.
[ ] You have a large family.
[ ] You have trouble lying.
Total: 2.5
Rainbow Dash:
[x] You love winning.
[ ] You like sports.
[x] You have a funky hair colour.
[x] You have fangirl tendencies.
[x] You have no problem speaking your mind.
[/] You will give up anything for your friends. (There's one thing I never would... but, mostly anything.)
[x] You like being recognized for good things.
[x] You have no problem being 'one of the guys'.
[x] You act now, think later.
[x] You're very brave. (Eh... more stupid and reckless. But I'll go with brave :I )
Total: 8.5
Rarity:
[x] You love being the center of attention.
[x] You have a cat.
[ ] You sew well. (LOL NOPE.)
[x] It's well-known that you're somewhat vain.
[x] You love the excitement of the city!
[ ] You will overwork yourself to do something nice for your friends.
[x] You wear makeup.
[x] You're prone to whining.
[ ] You have expensive tastes.
[ ] You enjoy 'filly-time.'
Total: 6
Fluttershy:
[ ] You HATE being the centre of attention.
[ ] You struggle with sharing your mind.
[x] You love animals and help them however you can.
[x] You're graceful. (Like a fucking balleri------ *falls*)
[ ] You're very quiet or soft-spoken.
[x] You have a secret mean-streak.
[x] You've been told you could model. (*Laughs* I'm way too short. But I have been told to model.)
[ ] You're the eldest of your friends.
[ ] You like wearing your hair loose and long.
[ ] You're very nurturing. (I can be... to people I really care about...)
Total: 4
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OKAY. SO.
1 min read
ALRIGHT. I HAVEN'T BEEN ON HERE IN OVER A MONTH.
YEAH.
SO.
A LOT HAS HAPPENED.
BUT THAT'S NOT IMPORTANT. THERE ARE FOUR IMPORTANT THINGS.
ONE: I GOT A NEW CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!! NIKON D3100!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TWO: I MAGICALLY GREW AN ABILITY TO DRAW OVER THE SUMMER. NO CLUE WHY. BUT I CAN SORTA DRAW IN A COMPETENT FASHION.
THREE: I HAVE A NEW MATE. AND I LOVE HIM. SO, YEAH. <3
FOUR: I AM THE QUEEN OF HEARTS IN OUR SCHOOL'S PRODUCTION OF ALICE IN WONDERLAND. FTW.
So.... I'm back, I think. God knows for how long. I'm funny like that > 3<
And, the third thing was by far the most important.... but that's besides the point.
YEAH.
SO.
A LOT HAS HAPPENED.
BUT THAT'S NOT IMPORTANT. THERE ARE FOUR IMPORTANT THINGS.
ONE: I GOT A NEW CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!! NIKON D3100!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TWO: I MAGICALLY GREW AN ABILITY TO DRAW OVER THE SUMMER. NO CLUE WHY. BUT I CAN SORTA DRAW IN A COMPETENT FASHION.
THREE: I HAVE A NEW MATE. AND I LOVE HIM. SO, YEAH. <3
FOUR: I AM THE QUEEN OF HEARTS IN OUR SCHOOL'S PRODUCTION OF ALICE IN WONDERLAND. FTW.
So.... I'm back, I think. God knows for how long. I'm funny like that > 3<
And, the third thing was by far the most important.... but that's besides the point.
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Is Music Killing Your Focus?
4 min read
Gretchen Phillips
Is Your Music Killing Your Focus?
9 August 2011
*DISCLAIMER: I want to point out right now that I am talking about perceived cases. Many people, whether they actually have the disorder or not, show symptoms of ADD or ADHD due to environmental circumstances [Ramer]. I also want to state that I'm writing this as simply an idea, and not a finished product that can be cited. Again, DO USE THIS WORK. It is not an academic paper and does not fully examine the issue. This is only intended to be something to think about the next time you plug in your radio or turn on your iPod.*
Okay, I propose a theory. We've all heard that children respond positively in focus and intelligence capabilities with Beethoven's music playing. Is it possible that ultra-fast electronic music is partially responsible for the increase in perceived ADHD and ADD cases?
It has become increasingly common that exceptionally fast, electronically generated music reaches the ears of the youth. Much of the music is highly repetitive and takes advantage of using more than one speaker, causing the ears to hear a different sounds simultaneously. Another common element of this genre is excessive layering of sounds, causing the brain to work on overdrive. It is also documented that faster, more boisterous music causes an inability to focus on the task at hand [Ritchie]. Some examples could be Dubstep, Skrillex, or the ever-popular Vocaloid.
Examples: (Dubstep) www.youtube.com/watch?v=rC2R5-…
(Skrillex) www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSeNSz…
(Vocaloid) www.youtube.com/watch?v=7shsdW…
Vocaloid is, of course, the fastest of the songs I listed. I don't recommend prolonged listening.
I feel that the inclusion of many of these songs on the playlists of children or young adults could be a large contributing factor in the development of ADHD or ADD symptoms. Even in my personal experience, I've noticed that many faithful listeners of these artists seem slightly more distracted than others. This could be a coincidence or even a bias, but it's simply what I've noted.
It is expressly stated that "slow- to medium-paced, non-percussive music, is beneficial in several learning situations" [Ritchie]. Another example of this phenomena is that "Classical music from the baroque period causes the heart beat and pulse rate to relax to the beat […] As the body becomes relaxed and alert, the mind is able to concentrate more easily" [O'Donnell].
I'm personally accustomed to very slow, droning songs that, depending on what I'm doing, fade very easily into the background or allow me to really focus on the nuances of the piece. However, when a song plays a melody that is too fast on which to focus, what does that leave us with? Multitasking at its worst. It becomes extremely difficult to focus on just that song, bringing the listener to either have wandering thoughts or just going to another website to entertain him or her while he or she listens. This causes the brain to work on overdrive consistently and lose its natural ability to focus.
As simply a side note, I've experienced odd eye movement, disorientation, and a distortion of time and sound perception depending upon how long I listen and how loud the music is played.
Of course, it is believed by many that ADHD and ADD is on the rise, but is it really? Many also believe that over-diagnosis is part of this phenomena. I believe that many environmental factors are contributing to the over-diagnosis and the perceived rise. These could be anything from having the speed and convenience of multitasking on the Internet to my theory of modern music. Whichever it may be, I don't expect you to throw out all of your songs. If you enjoy it, feel free to listen as much as you'd like. I simply ask that you assess your own capabilities of focus while listening to different genres. Is it possible that you and your grades could benefit from an overhaul of your Homework playlist?
Works Cited:
O'Donnell, Laurence. "Music and the Brain". Cerebromente.org. Cerebromente.org, 1999. Web. 9 August 2011.
Ramer, Jeanette C. "Probing Questions: Has there been an increase in ADHD?" Research|Penn State. Research|Penn State, 27 February 2006. Web. 9 August 2011.
Ritchie, Donn. "The Effects of Background Music on Learning: A Review of Recent Literature". Edweb.sdsu.edu, n.d. Web. 9 August 2011. [Please note that this website has been formally moved to coe.sdsu.edu, though this reference still remains posted on the original site.]
Is Your Music Killing Your Focus?
9 August 2011
*DISCLAIMER: I want to point out right now that I am talking about perceived cases. Many people, whether they actually have the disorder or not, show symptoms of ADD or ADHD due to environmental circumstances [Ramer]. I also want to state that I'm writing this as simply an idea, and not a finished product that can be cited. Again, DO USE THIS WORK. It is not an academic paper and does not fully examine the issue. This is only intended to be something to think about the next time you plug in your radio or turn on your iPod.*
Okay, I propose a theory. We've all heard that children respond positively in focus and intelligence capabilities with Beethoven's music playing. Is it possible that ultra-fast electronic music is partially responsible for the increase in perceived ADHD and ADD cases?
It has become increasingly common that exceptionally fast, electronically generated music reaches the ears of the youth. Much of the music is highly repetitive and takes advantage of using more than one speaker, causing the ears to hear a different sounds simultaneously. Another common element of this genre is excessive layering of sounds, causing the brain to work on overdrive. It is also documented that faster, more boisterous music causes an inability to focus on the task at hand [Ritchie]. Some examples could be Dubstep, Skrillex, or the ever-popular Vocaloid.
Examples: (Dubstep) www.youtube.com/watch?v=rC2R5-…
(Skrillex) www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSeNSz…
(Vocaloid) www.youtube.com/watch?v=7shsdW…
Vocaloid is, of course, the fastest of the songs I listed. I don't recommend prolonged listening.
I feel that the inclusion of many of these songs on the playlists of children or young adults could be a large contributing factor in the development of ADHD or ADD symptoms. Even in my personal experience, I've noticed that many faithful listeners of these artists seem slightly more distracted than others. This could be a coincidence or even a bias, but it's simply what I've noted.
It is expressly stated that "slow- to medium-paced, non-percussive music, is beneficial in several learning situations" [Ritchie]. Another example of this phenomena is that "Classical music from the baroque period causes the heart beat and pulse rate to relax to the beat […] As the body becomes relaxed and alert, the mind is able to concentrate more easily" [O'Donnell].
I'm personally accustomed to very slow, droning songs that, depending on what I'm doing, fade very easily into the background or allow me to really focus on the nuances of the piece. However, when a song plays a melody that is too fast on which to focus, what does that leave us with? Multitasking at its worst. It becomes extremely difficult to focus on just that song, bringing the listener to either have wandering thoughts or just going to another website to entertain him or her while he or she listens. This causes the brain to work on overdrive consistently and lose its natural ability to focus.
As simply a side note, I've experienced odd eye movement, disorientation, and a distortion of time and sound perception depending upon how long I listen and how loud the music is played.
Of course, it is believed by many that ADHD and ADD is on the rise, but is it really? Many also believe that over-diagnosis is part of this phenomena. I believe that many environmental factors are contributing to the over-diagnosis and the perceived rise. These could be anything from having the speed and convenience of multitasking on the Internet to my theory of modern music. Whichever it may be, I don't expect you to throw out all of your songs. If you enjoy it, feel free to listen as much as you'd like. I simply ask that you assess your own capabilities of focus while listening to different genres. Is it possible that you and your grades could benefit from an overhaul of your Homework playlist?
Works Cited:
O'Donnell, Laurence. "Music and the Brain". Cerebromente.org. Cerebromente.org, 1999. Web. 9 August 2011.
Ramer, Jeanette C. "Probing Questions: Has there been an increase in ADHD?" Research|Penn State. Research|Penn State, 27 February 2006. Web. 9 August 2011.
Ritchie, Donn. "The Effects of Background Music on Learning: A Review of Recent Literature". Edweb.sdsu.edu, n.d. Web. 9 August 2011. [Please note that this website has been formally moved to coe.sdsu.edu, though this reference still remains posted on the original site.]
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...what??
2 min read
All of a sudden, a ton of my pictures have a ton of downloads. I have no idea why... it's really weird. I don't know whether to be creeped out or flattered... or whether Timmy, my model, should be creeped out or flattered...
I guess it only weirds me out because it just started, I think. Even my most popular photos don't have as many downloads as these recent ones.
So, I guess if you've been downloading stuff, respect my copyright. It's my work, not yours. If something of mine gets stolen and claimed as someone else's or is not cited, I WILL COME AND FIND YOU AND FUCK YOU UP. I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE SOME GUY IN INDIA, A BIG CORPORATION, OR MY BEST FRIEND. YOU BREAK MY COPYRIGHT, I FUCK YOU UP. UNDERSTAND?
And don't wank to the pictures.
She's mine, don't wank to her.
Anyway.
And, if you have been downloading them, can you comment that you are? If it's one of my friends or someone that just likes my work and whatnot, that's cool~ I'm just paranoid of creepers...
I guess it only weirds me out because it just started, I think. Even my most popular photos don't have as many downloads as these recent ones.
So, I guess if you've been downloading stuff, respect my copyright. It's my work, not yours. If something of mine gets stolen and claimed as someone else's or is not cited, I WILL COME AND FIND YOU AND FUCK YOU UP. I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE SOME GUY IN INDIA, A BIG CORPORATION, OR MY BEST FRIEND. YOU BREAK MY COPYRIGHT, I FUCK YOU UP. UNDERSTAND?
And don't wank to the pictures.
She's mine, don't wank to her.
Anyway.
And, if you have been downloading them, can you comment that you are? If it's one of my friends or someone that just likes my work and whatnot, that's cool~ I'm just paranoid of creepers...
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100 Truths
7 min read
OKAY, first off let me say... WTF????????? I apparently have a re-occurring illness now, that's a bit personal to mention... but, anyways:
I'M A VEGETARIAN! WHY WOULD YOU PRESCRIBE ME GELATIN CAPSULES?????? WE TALKED ABOUT MY EATING FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES, MRS DOCTOR LADY! W.T.F.
And I can't not take them or the issue will get worse. So, it's not my fucking choice, but I've apparently broken my vegetarianism. Whoop-de-doo. The pills sit like a rock in my stomach, knowing that a purely innocent life was killed to put it there. Disgusting.
Anyway, a meme that I spent way too much time formatting:
001. Real name? Gretchen Adelaide Phillips
002. Nickname? Germany, Russland... mostly whatever Hetalia character I act like.
003. Zodiac sign? Aquarius
004. Male or female? Female... but I sometimes identify more as male.
005. Elementary? St. Patrick's.
006. Middle School? Holy Cross.
007. High School? M-ECS.
008. Hair color? Naturally? A blondish, reddish brown. Right now, it's a two-toned blonde.
009. Long or short? Well, mine is 5 meters... Oh, you meant hair?
010. Loud or Quiet? Quiet setting. If I'm home alone, loud music.
011. Sweats or Jeans? Jeans.
012. Phone or Camera? A really good camera any day.
013. Health freak? Meh. I'm a vegetarian, but that doesn't make me a health freak.
014. Drink or Smoke? Barely any drinking, I've had a cigarette or two in my time, but not as a regular thing.
016. Eat or Drink? Drink, probably.
017. Piercings? Just the standard ear piercings. Unfortunately, no one wants to pierce a 15-year-old. *le sigh*
018. Tattoos? Not now, but maybe in the future.
HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane? Yep.
020. Been in a car accident? Nope.
021. Been in a fist fight? Elementary school doesn't count, I don't think, so no.
FIRSTS:
022. First piercing? My ears.
023. First best friend? Ashley~
025. First award? Probably some spelling bee shit.
026. First crush? I think the kid's name was Nick. It was in Kindergarten and he thought all girls were icky.
028. First big vacation? Canada. We used to go every year.
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to? Oma~
030. Last person you texted? Timmy <3
031. Last person you watched a movie with? Helena... I fell asleep on her exceptionally comfortable chest XD
032. Last food you ate? An English muffin~
033. Last movie you watched? The Crow
034. Last song you listened? "Hell in a Handbasket" by Voltaire
035. Last thing you bought? Uh... water, I think.
036. Last person you hugged? My Mommy~
FAVES:
037. Food? TOFURKEY WURST AND SAUERKRAUT.
038. Drinks? Pineapple juice~
039. Clothing? Uhm... anything that strikes me on a given day, always accented by my collar.
040. Book? I don't know... maybe Tuck Everlasting? The Long Hard Road Out Of Hell?
041. Music? Marilyn Manson, Rammstein, Throbbing Gristle, Sunn 0)))... there are a lot XD
042. Flower? I don't really like flowers. They make me sneeze. Roses, I guess.
043. Colors? Black, German Army Green, Prussian Blue.
044. Movies? The Rocky Horror Picture Show, AntiChrist, The Crow... I dunno. There are a lot of these too.
045. Shoes? My Converse or the boots that I stole from Mom. My favourite shoes fell apart a week ago ; -;
046. Subjects? Uhm... Math, Science, History. English is too easy, Art is too hard... yeah.
IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [x] kissed in the snow
048. [x] celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [x] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [x] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [ ] done something you've regretted
056. [x] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [x] met someone who changed your life
060. [x] pretended to be sick
061. [ ] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [x] cried over the silliest thing
064. [ ] ran a mile
065. [x] went to the beach with your best friend
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating? Nothing...
068. Drinking? Water -___-
069. I'm about to? Eat lunch.
070. Listening to? My grandma talk.
071. Plans for today/tomorrow? Finish my favourite Prussia's graduation present~
072. Waiting for? The love of my life to get home in New York?
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? I don't really like boys... maybe I'll adopt, if I hit that point in life.
074. Want to get married? I don't know, America, are we going to legalise marriage for everyone?
075. Careers in mind? Physicist, computer engineer, mathematician... something for smart people XD
WHICH IS BETTER ON ABOY GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes? Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? Taller... I'm short.
078. Romantic or spontaneous? Both, definitely.
079. Nice stomach or nice arms? As long as the person is healthy, it doesn't really matter. Though I do like it when someone can compete with my manly biceps XD
080. Sensitive or loud? Hmm. There's a time and place for both. I'm loud at cons and stuff, but not normally. I would need someone who's both.
081. Hookup or relationship? Depends. There's a time and place for both, but I'm happy in my relationship.
082. Troublemaker or hesitant? Troublemaker. Let's fuck up ALL the shit!
HAVE YOU EVER
083. Lost glasses/contacts? Yep.
084. Ran away from home? I suppose, yes... but then 7 took over and went back.
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense? ... yes.
086. Killed somebody? ... don't judge me...
087. Broken someone's heart? Yes.
088. Been arrested? No. I have been in handcuffs before though...
089. Cried when someone died? Yep. I held her hand and watched her die.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself? Sometimes.
091. Miracles? No.
092. Love at first sight? No.
093. Heaven? No.
094. Santa Claus? Fuck no. That's the worst lie you can tell a child.
095. Sex on the first date? It depends. You don't need a date to get close to someone.
096. Kiss on the first date? It depends. As I said, you don't need a date to love someone.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes. So very much. I feel like a fish out of water, floundering desperately for air without her.
098. Are you seriously happy in life? I would have to say, no. I have fun, but there's always those hours of lying awake at night.
099. Do you believe in God? No. I used to believe, then bad things happened. If he/she/it doesn't give a shit about me, why should I give a shit about him/her/it.
Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.
But... there are only 99 questions ; -;
Anyway, I'm on Deviant Art... I can't really tag... so... PIKACHU, I TAG YOU!
I'M A VEGETARIAN! WHY WOULD YOU PRESCRIBE ME GELATIN CAPSULES?????? WE TALKED ABOUT MY EATING FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES, MRS DOCTOR LADY! W.T.F.
And I can't not take them or the issue will get worse. So, it's not my fucking choice, but I've apparently broken my vegetarianism. Whoop-de-doo. The pills sit like a rock in my stomach, knowing that a purely innocent life was killed to put it there. Disgusting.
Anyway, a meme that I spent way too much time formatting:
001. Real name? Gretchen Adelaide Phillips
002. Nickname? Germany, Russland... mostly whatever Hetalia character I act like.
003. Zodiac sign? Aquarius
004. Male or female? Female... but I sometimes identify more as male.
005. Elementary? St. Patrick's.
006. Middle School? Holy Cross.
007. High School? M-ECS.
008. Hair color? Naturally? A blondish, reddish brown. Right now, it's a two-toned blonde.
009. Long or short? Well, mine is 5 meters... Oh, you meant hair?
010. Loud or Quiet? Quiet setting. If I'm home alone, loud music.
011. Sweats or Jeans? Jeans.
012. Phone or Camera? A really good camera any day.
013. Health freak? Meh. I'm a vegetarian, but that doesn't make me a health freak.
014. Drink or Smoke? Barely any drinking, I've had a cigarette or two in my time, but not as a regular thing.
016. Eat or Drink? Drink, probably.
017. Piercings? Just the standard ear piercings. Unfortunately, no one wants to pierce a 15-year-old. *le sigh*
018. Tattoos? Not now, but maybe in the future.
HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane? Yep.
020. Been in a car accident? Nope.
021. Been in a fist fight? Elementary school doesn't count, I don't think, so no.
FIRSTS:
022. First piercing? My ears.
023. First best friend? Ashley~
025. First award? Probably some spelling bee shit.
026. First crush? I think the kid's name was Nick. It was in Kindergarten and he thought all girls were icky.
028. First big vacation? Canada. We used to go every year.
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to? Oma~
030. Last person you texted? Timmy <3
031. Last person you watched a movie with? Helena... I fell asleep on her exceptionally comfortable chest XD
032. Last food you ate? An English muffin~
033. Last movie you watched? The Crow
034. Last song you listened? "Hell in a Handbasket" by Voltaire
035. Last thing you bought? Uh... water, I think.
036. Last person you hugged? My Mommy~
FAVES:
037. Food? TOFURKEY WURST AND SAUERKRAUT.
038. Drinks? Pineapple juice~
039. Clothing? Uhm... anything that strikes me on a given day, always accented by my collar.
040. Book? I don't know... maybe Tuck Everlasting? The Long Hard Road Out Of Hell?
041. Music? Marilyn Manson, Rammstein, Throbbing Gristle, Sunn 0)))... there are a lot XD
042. Flower? I don't really like flowers. They make me sneeze. Roses, I guess.
043. Colors? Black, German Army Green, Prussian Blue.
044. Movies? The Rocky Horror Picture Show, AntiChrist, The Crow... I dunno. There are a lot of these too.
045. Shoes? My Converse or the boots that I stole from Mom. My favourite shoes fell apart a week ago ; -;
046. Subjects? Uhm... Math, Science, History. English is too easy, Art is too hard... yeah.
IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [x] kissed in the snow
048. [x] celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [x] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [x] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [ ] done something you've regretted
056. [x] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [x] met someone who changed your life
060. [x] pretended to be sick
061. [ ] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [x] cried over the silliest thing
064. [ ] ran a mile
065. [x] went to the beach with your best friend
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating? Nothing...
068. Drinking? Water -___-
069. I'm about to? Eat lunch.
070. Listening to? My grandma talk.
071. Plans for today/tomorrow? Finish my favourite Prussia's graduation present~
072. Waiting for? The love of my life to get home in New York?
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? I don't really like boys... maybe I'll adopt, if I hit that point in life.
074. Want to get married? I don't know, America, are we going to legalise marriage for everyone?
075. Careers in mind? Physicist, computer engineer, mathematician... something for smart people XD
WHICH IS BETTER ON A
076. Lips or eyes? Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? Taller... I'm short.
078. Romantic or spontaneous? Both, definitely.
079. Nice stomach or nice arms? As long as the person is healthy, it doesn't really matter. Though I do like it when someone can compete with my manly biceps XD
080. Sensitive or loud? Hmm. There's a time and place for both. I'm loud at cons and stuff, but not normally. I would need someone who's both.
081. Hookup or relationship? Depends. There's a time and place for both, but I'm happy in my relationship.
082. Troublemaker or hesitant? Troublemaker. Let's fuck up ALL the shit!
HAVE YOU EVER
083. Lost glasses/contacts? Yep.
084. Ran away from home? I suppose, yes... but then 7 took over and went back.
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense? ... yes.
086. Killed somebody? ... don't judge me...
087. Broken someone's heart? Yes.
088. Been arrested? No. I have been in handcuffs before though...
089. Cried when someone died? Yep. I held her hand and watched her die.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself? Sometimes.
091. Miracles? No.
092. Love at first sight? No.
093. Heaven? No.
094. Santa Claus? Fuck no. That's the worst lie you can tell a child.
095. Sex on the first date? It depends. You don't need a date to get close to someone.
096. Kiss on the first date? It depends. As I said, you don't need a date to love someone.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes. So very much. I feel like a fish out of water, floundering desperately for air without her.
098. Are you seriously happy in life? I would have to say, no. I have fun, but there's always those hours of lying awake at night.
099. Do you believe in God? No. I used to believe, then bad things happened. If he/she/it doesn't give a shit about me, why should I give a shit about him/her/it.
Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.
But... there are only 99 questions ; -;
Anyway, I'm on Deviant Art... I can't really tag... so... PIKACHU, I TAG YOU!
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